Pumulo

i am sponsoring a little girl over in zambia named pumulo. she is six years old and has the face of a serious church elder...i've always wanted to sponsor a child and kept putting it off and putting off but this year i have decided to go ahead and just do it and not think about it...i didn't want to discuss this with anyone, didn't want to have any one add their two cents to what i wanted to do..i had sponsored another child over the christmas holidays..when i first made mention of this, someone close to me started yelping and complaining and i just gave him the death stare...his complaint was that we could not afford it and i calmly told him that i am doing this, not we, and i did not recall asking for his permission...at first, i got a sick feeling in my stomach that he would act like this when what i was doing was a good thing....once he got over himself, he started apologizing profusely but by then, i had put his nonsense on the back burner and started to enjoyed myself...i wanted to spend more than i did but unfortunately i couldn't..at least for christmas of 2007....i fully plan on doing it again for christmas of 2008...pumulo is another story altogether...i want to have a relationship with her...i know it is impossible to have a hands-on relationship.....it would be a dream come true if i could go and see her in about 5 to 10 years...that would be my dream trip...i looked at the website for zambia and it looks beautiful...i know that they are only showing the touristy type of pictures but just the fact that i could be there, is amazing....i bought her a book, one that i had loved when i was a kid, the saggy baggy elephant...i just love the artwork and the story line...i'm hoping that she will like it....i took pictures of the snow outside and i want someone to take a picture of me in it so she can have an idea of where i am living....if i had done this earlier, i could have sent her pictures of the autumn landscape...i know she probably has changing seasons there but i want her to see where i live...i'll even take pictures of our mangy cat, iggy...actually, he isn't mangy but she doesn't know that :)...pumulo...how glad i am to have you....

i'm worried

my husband is not where he should be in his life...actually, where he wants to be in life...i told him that he should get his GED and then he can take classes to get ahead but to me, it seems like he would rather bitch about everything than to actually do something about it. i love him and i want to see him do better. i don't have a college education but i will be taking classes to have that on my resume...who wants to be in their fifties and still pulling crap pay...i want him to do so much better than he is and i am afraid that he won't..he gets depressed easily and when he does, he literally drains the life out of me...i just want him to do better so he will feel better about himself...is that too much to ask?